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actuallyclintbarton) wrote2014-12-16 11:05 pm
actuallyclintbarton) wrote2014-12-16 11:05 pm
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yeah, i continue to fail at dw. whoops.
So my conversion studying is well under way! (though i have to finish some reading tonight before my meeting with the rabbi tomorrow) Doing lots of reading, asking the rabbi questions, going to shul. Tonight's the first night of chanukah and it was AWESOME. I mean, I didn't do much, but the thing is I couldn't find a menorah that I could afford. We literally just moved into the house (and out of the shithole trailer, yay!) a week ago and I hadn't been able to find a menorah and it was just sad and I was going to have to make something from cardboard and tape and it was super sad.
I mentioned it on tumblr, and my friend Lauren said that if I wanted, she could send me one she'd had for years but never used. And I said YES YES YES and sent her my address and today I got the package (she even sent a box of candles!) and got to light my Chanukah candle and it was AWESOME. She got that menorah in 1997 for her bat mitzvah, along with two others, and had never liked it so had never used it. And now it's proudly sitting on my mantle.
Some shit went down that I found out about on Friday when we were talking and it'd been a really rough day for me, so I thanked her super super much, and she said this to me:
I literally almost started crying in shul waiting for shabbat service to start. Baruch HaShem for awesome Jewish friends.
BASICALLY UM.
IDK.
I'm alive, we're in a house, and I am so so blessed to have amazing friends who are helping me on my journey into Judaism.
So my conversion studying is well under way! (though i have to finish some reading tonight before my meeting with the rabbi tomorrow) Doing lots of reading, asking the rabbi questions, going to shul. Tonight's the first night of chanukah and it was AWESOME. I mean, I didn't do much, but the thing is I couldn't find a menorah that I could afford. We literally just moved into the house (and out of the shithole trailer, yay!) a week ago and I hadn't been able to find a menorah and it was just sad and I was going to have to make something from cardboard and tape and it was super sad.
I mentioned it on tumblr, and my friend Lauren said that if I wanted, she could send me one she'd had for years but never used. And I said YES YES YES and sent her my address and today I got the package (she even sent a box of candles!) and got to light my Chanukah candle and it was AWESOME. She got that menorah in 1997 for her bat mitzvah, along with two others, and had never liked it so had never used it. And now it's proudly sitting on my mantle.
Some shit went down that I found out about on Friday when we were talking and it'd been a really rough day for me, so I thanked her super super much, and she said this to me:
I will steal something I read once on chabad.org (wretched hive of scum and villainy though it may be): "There is a Jewish belief that Judaism is not just good for the Jewish soul, it’s natural for the Jewish soul. The soul feels at home when it says Hebrew prayers, experiences a Shabbat table, or puts up a mezuzah. These acts are what makes the Jewish soul comfortable. A Jew has an innate affinity towards Judaism."
I see that affinity in you, and I think it is the very least I can do to help you on your journey. I'll drop the box in the mail tomorrow. <3
I literally almost started crying in shul waiting for shabbat service to start. Baruch HaShem for awesome Jewish friends.
BASICALLY UM.
IDK.
I'm alive, we're in a house, and I am so so blessed to have amazing friends who are helping me on my journey into Judaism.
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I am very belatedly happy for you, but I am happy for you nonetheless!
Happy Chanukah from our system and everyone in it. >_>b
(they had latkes at the grocery store hot bar and I got to eat them again with sour cream and applesauce omg)
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(omg i made latkes last night for dinner, they didn't even NEED dipped in anything, they had feta cheese in them? And they were SO DELICIOUS. the kitchen was a disaster afterwards, but SO GOOD!)
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And between being otherkin and the Shinto-ness, I feel like hearing what you did from someone in a socially acceptable place to tell us that would feel wonderful. We're glad that you have a friend like that, and that this journey has helped you so much.
(We're going to try to work on a kamidana, or personal shrine, this year. Hopefully.)
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IT DID FEEL WONDERFUL AND I HOPE SOMEONE CAN TELL Y'ALL THAT SORT OF THING ONE DAY TOO. Seriously, I am so grateful for the tumblr jewish community bc everyone i've talked to has been super encouraging and welcoming, and LAUREN, just. it's so validating, in a way, and I love it.
(oooooo, fingers crossed! That will be good for you, I hope you get to do it!)