actuallyclintbarton | Entries tagged with me: is this the real life

yeah, i continue to fail at dw. whoops.

So my conversion studying is well under way! (though i have to finish some reading tonight before my meeting with the rabbi tomorrow) Doing lots of reading, asking the rabbi questions, going to shul. Tonight's the first night of chanukah and it was AWESOME. I mean, I didn't do much, but the thing is I couldn't find a menorah that I could afford. We literally just moved into the house (and out of the shithole trailer, yay!) a week ago and I hadn't been able to find a menorah and it was just sad and I was going to have to make something from cardboard and tape and it was super sad.

I mentioned it on tumblr, and my friend Lauren said that if I wanted, she could send me one she'd had for years but never used. And I said YES YES YES and sent her my address and today I got the package (she even sent a box of candles!) and got to light my Chanukah candle and it was AWESOME. She got that menorah in 1997 for her bat mitzvah, along with two others, and had never liked it so had never used it. And now it's proudly sitting on my mantle.

Some shit went down that I found out about on Friday when we were talking and it'd been a really rough day for me, so I thanked her super super much, and she said this to me:

I will steal something I read once on chabad.org (wretched hive of scum and villainy though it may be): "There is a Jewish belief that Judaism is not just good for the Jewish soul, it’s natural for the Jewish soul. The soul feels at home when it says Hebrew prayers, experiences a Shabbat table, or puts up a mezuzah. These acts are what makes the Jewish soul comfortable. A Jew has an innate affinity towards Judaism."

I see that affinity in you, and I think it is the very least I can do to help you on your journey. I'll drop the box in the mail tomorrow. <3

I literally almost started crying in shul waiting for shabbat service to start. Baruch HaShem for awesome Jewish friends.

BASICALLY UM.

IDK.

I'm alive, we're in a house, and I am so so blessed to have amazing friends who are helping me on my journey into Judaism.

yes that's right, folks, your friendly neighborhood katie-kate is STILL ALIVE!!! Have an update post in a totally haphazard manner that may not entirely make sense!~

we have moved into a trailer with working AC (and gotten one of two definitely-required air circulators, so birdie can use her office but our mattress is still in the living room) and we're working on getting settled.

i think i'm dealing with autistic burnout from the extended stress of the past 8-9 months, which is... unfun. Especially since it's made my temper much shorter and my ability to shut my goddamn mouth before i cause more trouble that much less functional.

i had a p bad meltdown a couple nights ago that i'm still paying for, physically and emotionally. Bluh.

On the bright side, we have our own space and it's very nice to have that again, and i have a couple weeks at least to just... rest and recuperate before i have to do much regular adulting.

Mal's staying with us for a couple nights bc their mom went on an immature hissy fit, which makes me feel a little bit (right now) like there are too many people in the house, but I don't begrudge them the visit IN THE LEAST. Seriously, like. I would not have offered if I wasn't ok with it, and their mom was being awful and pissing me off from across town, the house is just a little over-full for the next couple days.

There was a little bit of drama with a neighbor regarding some stray starving kittens and their probably-about-6-month-old mama that the neighbors decided abruptly that they owned when we decided to take them to the SPCA instead of letting them go feral, and by "a little bit" i mean the cops were called, TWICE, but the kitties have not been seen outside since the second time so I am hoping that they are actually getting the care they need now, and that's all that I really care about in the end.

in other news, seeing people call me kate and km continues to make me feel warm and fuzzy inside. aw yeah finding names that fit. kind of wish i'd realized how much i like kate when i started going to temple bc now i'm torn between sticking with mat and shyly asking if they mind switching to kate. chosen names are hard sometimes.

ugh.

left the house today at about 1:30 because i woke up and it was 90 degrees INSIDE. woke up birdie and bitsy, and we booked it out of there. we are now at panera.

have an appt to see a house tomorrow. holding breath it'll be doable. please be doable.

no place is hiring until august, except hot topic, whose hiring manager was looking at applications last week. haven't heard from her. will call back tomorrow to see if i should keep hoping for a call or if i didn't even get an interview.

dad's getting back from a trip to africa (??????) on the 7th. trying to set up coffee for the 8th to lay out the situation and ask for a loan. it will be smaller if i get hired at hot topic, but i'm no longer holding out much hope there. hoping i can get him to understand that we will literally be homeless if he doesn't help, regardless of if i get the job or not.

need to remember to add bullet points in case he asks about the pet store - getting no response from anyone i tried to contact, then hearing a week later from someone who doesn't even work there that they want to offer me a job does not make me feel confident about the working environment. this is logical, right?

gonna go work on tags. bluh. i hate summer. i hate florida. :c

Okay here's the plan:

~~Wake up Bitsy by 2:30~~ NEVER MIND! They just wandered out. :3
Get out and about by 4
Swing by an athletic store to see if they have smartwool socks (I can't find mine)
GOODWILL BEFORE 5 THEY CLOSE AT 5:30
Weep over my sleep schedule and having to be up early tomorrow
Locate my passport
Contemplate going to the laundromat for a load solely for the purpose of washing my really dirty sneakers (though I'm p sure that no one will mind if my sneakers are dirty at the pet store

Also, tomorrow is day 1 of my week of trial working at the pet store up in Carrollwood! It's... like 40 minutes away from where we're living now and idek how I'm gonna handle gas money, honestly, but it's a job with a lot of potential and a good work environment from what I can tell, so mrrrh. And they're not making me do an application or a usual interview bc my cousin suggested me when the owner asked if she knew anyone who was looking for a job, which is kinda nice.

Plus, y'know... dogs... dogs everywhere... PUPPIES :D

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just focus and keep aiming

aw, coffee, no

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