new journal woo!

[actuallyclintbarton]

sooooo, here it is! first post on a new journal, let's hope i actually remember to keep up with this, yeah?

I am torn between making sure I'm doing like, y'know, proper capitalization and punctuation? or just being like ah fuck it i'm goin the tumblr route

I guess we'll see.

This will probably not be used TOO much, but I will undoubtedly post a lot of random headcanony things here. Possibly crossposted from my tumblr (actuallyclintbarton) but idk idk.

Still tweaking the style and filling out the profile, but we'll see how this goes. WOO!

(note to self: don't use tags like on tumblr. This is not tumblr. You have limited tags.)

Comments

[actuallyclintbarton]

oh my god this filter is godly.

things i wish i had irl: prescription purple-tint glasses. I would look pretentious as fuck and I don't even care. (purple is probably in part my fave color because it's the nicest on my eyes) Ooooh this is lovely, i don't have to squint to look at everything!

[iamshadow]

I know, right? And it seems to be pretty stable across the newer formats, I've been using it since I was running XP, and as far as I can tell, it runs on 7 and 8 just fine. One thing, though, I have had it in the past do a thing where if you play a video, sometimes it will get confused and flicker on-and-off like hell, depending on your player, so just make sure you ctrl+alt+i before you press play on anything.

You say pretentious, I say FABULOUS. :D My partner and I both have them, hers are dark blue. We're both on disability, and it took years to get them, from the first research to actually getting them. Even with a combined assessment appointment, it probably set us back the best part of $1,000 (assessment, lenses, frames). For about four months, my lenses were in a postbag sitting at home, because Emma's migraines and changed prescription meant getting hers made up took priority.

[actuallyclintbarton]

well, they can LOOK pretentious. If you don't understaaaand. Or appreciate purple imo. YOU LOOK BALLER IN THEM NGL.

Ugh, one day. Fuck everything for being so hard. I would kill for those. I will do my damnedest once we're settled to get it rolling.

[iamshadow]

It's weird, I've been wearing them for about eight or nine months now, and just in the last couple of weeks, I've had compliments about them from people I know I've seen semi-regularly since I got them. I have been wearing them all the time! IDK. The frames I got were just serendipitous - we went to get Emma's frames, and I saw them on display and they were exactly the same colour as my tints. I even got the lenses out of the envelopes to check. So I got the glasses shop person to write down the item code for them, and when we had money and went back, I was able to go right up to the display, find them in about ten seconds flat, and hand them over to the staff member.

If the computer filter is helping that noticeably, it's probably something you want to think about doing eventually. It was one of those things we always knew we'd do if we ever got the money, and we moved house and changed cars twice in that time period, not to mention emergencies for pets and all the other bullshit that comes with living on a fixed income. It took us the better part of a decade before we managed it, but it's been worth it for us, and so we know it was the right decision. But then again, if your main issues are the computer, not, say, sunlight or fluorescent lighting, then the free filter might be all you need. tl;dr, your mileage may vary. :)

Randomly - I saw a kid wearing Irlen tints yesterday! Our neighbours had a going-out-of-business auction, and we helped out watching for people with sticky fingers. There was a family with three young kids, and this nine or ten year old boy was wearing what were obviously prescription glasses, not sunglasses, and the lenses were this bright, clear yellow. No idea what his neurotype was, I didn't talk to them, but I thought hah! Hello, fellow neurodivergent person! You have parents that got you awesome specs, like Robert Downey Jr. (Now there is a public figure who wears a lot of coloured lenses who has clear attention/impulse control issues. ONE OF US.)

[actuallyclintbarton]

oh no, it's definitely something I'd want lenses for, I DESPISE driving during the day, and even at night headlights make me squint constantly. *HISSSSSSS* THE SUN, IT BURNSES US! And also makes our eyes hurt.

But yes, I am definitely gonna look into all this. This and hearing screening, bc I literally don't know if I have an auditory processing issue or (more likely since it seems to be a volume thing) actual hearing loss. SO MUCH TO TRY TO ACCOMODATE FOR...

[iamshadow]

Hey, would you mind if my partner friended you? She's awesome, I should know. She's a fanartist, and she writes about disability stuff, and posts the odd links round up of interesting things.

irlen.com is the site for accredited tinting specialists, they have a search engine for finding someone near you who can do the screening. I found both the screening specialists we went to over the years through them, and I'm in Australia, so I think it's pretty comprehensive. They have a self-test questionnaire, too. You'd be surprised at some of the things on the test that you experience but don't think are actually part of sensitivity, but are.

That sucks about the hearing. Mine is fairly good, especially at the upper register of pitch (which means I can always tell I something electrical is on in a room, even if it's on standby), but I had a severe inner ear infection when I was a teenager, and lost a lot of aural comprehension for some speech pitches in one ear for at least a year or two. Even now, I don't know if it eventually healed, or if I just learned to compensate. My comprehension and tolerance level in crowded spaces is pretty bad, though, and sudden loud noises physically pain me. Sometimes I'll miss when someone's speaking to me, but much of the time it's because my focus is on something else and it doesn't register, rather than because of any physical reason. I have attention issues which I think are of an inattentive type ADHD flavour in my autism fruit salad, and they mean sometimes my attention will wander mid conversation, and my working memory is rubbish. Give me a list of four things and I'll immediately forget three. Nope, too slow, now all four are gone. Could you repeat that?

[actuallyclintbarton]

Will reply to the rest later when not about to pass out but your partner may ABSOLUTELY follow me. <3

[kath_ballantyne]

*WAVES*
Hi hi. I'm Emma/Kath, Shadow's girl.

[kath_ballantyne]

Ugh Sunlight has always hated me. I get the light sensitivities thing. I'm very fair skinned and I burn if I step outside and light is evil as far as my eyes are concerned. I have very dark blue lenses and then wear the darkest sunglasses I can find over them and still struggle on bright days.
Going outside or looking at a screen at normal brightness will give me an instant migraine.
I have to change in to my clear glasses at night even though the headlights hurt my eyes though as my lenses are too dark for me to see.

Good luck with getting the lenses.

[actuallyclintbarton]

Yeah, I'm not THAT sensitive, thankfully, but like... I spend two days driving and when I arrive at my destination I'm just like "TURN OFF ALL THE LIGHTS EVEN THE COMPUTER ACROSS THE ROOM I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL HAVE A MELTDOWN IF I CAN'T BE IN THE DARK FOR A FEW MINUTES"

I mean, thankfully my wife and our new roommate were very accommodating, but it was like UUUUGH. And then I get headaches but I feel almost like they're more stress headaches from all the squinting I have to do to keep my eyes from hurting in the bright.